Hey, it wouldn't be such a bad idea to make a habit of blogging again, would it?
The bbq yesterday was good ol' fun stuff. Most of us threw in 10 bones and I ate like a king...twice. And the beer never ran out. It wasn't even in danger of running out. How cool is that? There were ribs, burgers, boneless chicken, and portobello caps to be had. All marinated the previous night by our gracious host Nat dogg(now to be known as grillmaster number one). There were all the condiments there. Cheese, tomato, lettuce, bacon, katsup, mustard, etc...along with an attempt at finger food(grilled eel over semi-stale crackers) which did its job. Overall, good stuff.
Initially, I began to gripe a bit at having to do most of the organizing for most of our recent excursions, calling everyone, deciding a time, date, and place to meet, and keeping everyone abreast of what was going on. Its okay with me for the most part, but when people just expect it of you to do it, thats when it gets on my nerves a bit. I remember last week I called up D to see what was going on with the bbq and he got on my case about not doing my "job". Thats when I just snapped back and said, "fuck it, I don't need this. Forget the bbq. Lates" and hung up the phone. Then an hour or so later, the other D called me up and I guess he softened me up a bit and later that night I was calling everyone up and getting it organized. I guess I learned that if its something you really want to happen, you're better off taking the initiative and getting the ball rolling yourself. Although I've gotta admit, its fun sometimes to just sit back and let someone else do it.=)
I just watched Spirited Away for the first time tonight. That film is really beautiful. There are a few moments that got my emotions really going. Someday, if I ever make films, I'm going to try to make something that people (either the masses or just a niche group) respond to in this way. Thats how I rate films in the broad sense. "Did it get me? Did it affect me?" I just love how film can do that to a person. I love the narrative format of expression. As they say, movies are the modern popular language so I guess there's no better place to be.=)
Over at the bbq I got to borrow a ton of movies, including Miyazaki's entire collection, both Toy Stories and even another pc game to keep me busy. Funny enough, they're all bootleg. Or at least were all purchased in asia, and look suspiciously bootlegged...I claim ignorance.
Time for bed. Nite.
There is a small bottle of tobasco sauce on my desk.
6/3/2003 03:41:49 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2003
Its oldschool jams night. I've got an old dusty copy of 4pm on(remember them from back in the day?), and popeye cartoons running on mute on the television next to me. I'm downloading Tamia's Officially Missing You song by Ger's suggestion, and in general, I'm just feelin' good about sitting here in my comfy sweats and furry parka at 2:07 in the morning typing this blog.
There are a bunch of things happening and nothing really at all. I mean with the job/internship after school ended, its a waiting game, so what I'm doing in regards to that actually requires me to sit on my duff for another week to wait for a response. Of course I'm spending some chill time at home and hanging out with the friends sporadically...just enough. Not too much, not too little. Its a good little mix I got going right now. In fact, we're having a bbq tomorrow and it should be fun and (yeah, you're gonna be hearing this word a lot in the next week) chill.
I'm pondering what else is there to say without getting too specific. I originally intended this entry to be more of a state of the union address, where I'm just letting you know how things generally are in Dan's land right now, without telling you what I had for breakfast today (chocolate mint ice cream=).
I'm catching up with the blogs and journals I've been missing out on the past few weeks. I bet most of these people probably have no idea I still read their blogs because they haven't heard from me in eons. There have been things I planned on doing now that I have time, but strange enough, when I have all this time, I find that these things still don't get done=) Things like writing long overdue e-mails, phone calls to see whats up... They'll get done though, in the weeks to come. No rush.
Ahh...its the good life. And you know what makes it sweeter? I know it won't last. I know these days of chilling and doing whatever the hell I want day after day isn't going to last forever, and I don't want it to. I used to think "man, becoming a millionaire and retiring young and doing nothing for the rest of your damn life is living," but now I know its much better to be productive in someway. Something to take pride in, rather than sitting on your duff for your whole life. It builds character, inner pride, confidence, and all that other good stuff, and I just realize again that I'm livin' the dream. Doing what I love for a living...and goddamn its sweet.
