I've been doin' it hermit style today...uff. Well, the guys wanna go out to this all you can eat sushi joint we've been talkin about...I'm a little lazy to go...I've got a decent amount of homework to do tomorrow, and I wanted to get my laundry and grocery shopping done today...so I told them that...
"what is this crap"
haha...okay, so I feel bad for flakin' out...so:
"aww what the fuck...I'm comming. After I take a shower"
SOOo...I'm off to shower. One of my friend's friend is arriving from UCSD in about half an hour, so the plan is we're all going out to eat....I wouldn't mind gettin' liquored up...bwhAHAhAha....ahem....
4/21/2001 07:19:10 PM
Today was a great drawing day...I made my way down to the friday workshop just in time to catch the first 20 minutes. And the posing model happened to be my favorite quickstudy model...its an older japanese gentleman. I swear, this guy's a natural model...he does all these situational poses...some are hilarious...its like he paints a picture with his gestures...like he may go from fishing, to scrubbing the floor, to laughing at someone...I mean, you get the feeling he's actually doing what he's modeling. And I love his body.........type. He's got a short, stocky physique...some parts are kinda knarled by age...y'kno, really interesting to draw. So no doubt my good drawing day is in large part due to him.
Second factor was my new pen...heh...sound silly to attribute something to a pen? Well, I'd been using another pen up until recently, and it wasn't made all too well for gesture drawings....and it was blue. But my new pen, I love my new pen....*cradles pen* "Oh new pen, oh new pen, will you make many cool drawings with me?" I gotta pick up a spare.
Third factor would probably be that I actually got a seat up front...and most people don't realize that a few feet make a lot of difference as to how far you are from the model. You may think, "If I'm in the front row, or just behind it, no big deal" But I've found that its does make a difference.
Le Femme Indiana Jones came a little later on...and we chatted a bit inbetween breaks. After the workshop ended, I was packing up to leave when she called me over.
"I just got a package from India today"
She pulled out a bag, and unwrapped it...and inside were hundreds of knotted strings...we'd talked about them before, they were prayer knots(I guess you'd call them). Each knot holds a prayer, and have been blessed by the Dali Lama....technically, all he has to do is look at it and its blessed....people make necklaces out of them, or hang them on their car mirrors...y'kno...I suppose its almost like rosery.
"I think you deserve one.."
So she unknotted one and gave it to me...I thanked her. I thought it was a very nice of her...and I guess I can use all the help I can get=) I just held it in my palm for awhile, looking at it, putting my finger through the loop...the deal with Tibetans is they usually don't trust mail...so if people from America or wherever visit there, and they hear about it, they'll ask, "Oh you're from such-and-such??(and usually at this point they bring out a huge bag of whatever) Can you carry something back, and call so-and-so when you get back?" And thats how these things get passed along....usually, if you recieve a bag like that, you'll take a few and pass them around, then pass on the package to someone else so they can do the same. Heh...kinda like a network of sorts.
So yeah, I'm holding the prayer knot here in my hand.....purdy cool.
4/21/2001 01:47:03 PM
Friday, April 20, 2001
Well its raining cats and dogs outside....I ended up NOT going back to sleep, but rather, I stayed awake(could it have been the work of that ice cream float?..........nAH!) working on something. You guys should see it soon.
Y'kno how I was gonna go get some drawings done today?(We've got to have a portfolio of 30 drawings of varying lengths done for my Clothed Figure Drawing class)....uhh....*bows head sheepishly* I didn't. In fact....I went back to sleep for an hour.=X
I'm debating on what to do today...I KNO I'll be drawing today at some point...I missed the class, but there are 2 workshops tonite(both at the same time...one has quick sketches...the one I usually attend, and one has one three hour pose...which I'd been debating on going to, to get that drawing done for my bro)...I was thinking about going down to the Buffalo Exchange for some new threads. For those who don't kno, its a vintage clothing store that sells used stuff...tru, not nearly as cheap as the goodwill, but its easier pickins'...and I just don't have the time to go trudging around the goodwill right now. I asked Ger as to my course of action, and she said "Buffalo *giggle*" hehe...or something like that. But knowing her, she's vintage queen, what would I have her say? Hmm....hmm....*strokes chin*
I've had the topic for a postponed discussion with my brother man Jerome swimming around in my head every now and then....categorized in the philosophy section: "What is the soul?" It seems this is something that has been brought up in his philosophy class...I tell him he's got the heads up on me with the fact that they've had readings on it, and class papers, etc....but when I think about it, why does it matter? Its not a competition by any means...or shouldn't be, rah? So what is the soul....hmmm....don't mind if I *stroke chin summore* I think that question assumes a precursive question, "Do you believe in the soul?" And while I wholeheartedly DO, I have yet to resolve it with myself to the point where I can argue on the point. Hmmm...hmm...*here's me thinking*
Wow, its 3:30 already and I have yet to venture outside and enjoy this beautiful *cough: rainy* day. I don't think I'mma do the vintage thing today...I'd better get on with the day, no? Alrite folks, more later....
4/20/2001 03:23:59 PM
Its 5:16am and I'm endulging in an ice cream float....I just woke up 10 minutes ago....THIS is what I love about being in college=) Gah I'm messed up...
I'm not sure whether I should go back to sleep or just stay awake and make it to school early for a workshop/class at 9am...get in those extra drawings and practice...or...not.
I beat Deus Ex yesterday...the ending(one of 4) was about 30 seconds long.....but I don't feel altogether cheated...because the game itself was great fun to play through, a lengthy ending would've just been icing on the cake. I won't hold it against the game though...its still a great game in my book.
This weekend, I've got a few things planned. None of which I'm sure will actually happen. First off, I just heard my cousin is visiting from San Diego, and he's somewhere in the city at a hotel...I've got to somehow get a hold of him and hopefully we can hook up. Secondly, my brother said I should come over and kick it this weekend...he's been in his new pad for nearly a month now, and I've yet to see it. Cable....high speed internet access....a possibility of a BBQ....sounds good to me. Thirdly, I've got homework...the one thats on my mind most right now is an animatic made in Maya's Composer. I'll have to fit it in sometime before monday.
Well, I'd planned to get a couple things done tonite, but it seems I snored through the whole thing....well, I guess no one can argue that a few good hours of sleep is NOT a waste of time.
Man, what is it with me...even with all this introspection and personal insight, sometimes I have no idea what the deal is with me.
I think part of the reason why I don't blog as much anymore is...hmm...I guess after a certain amount of time, y'start to think, "who's reading this? What if the people I'm writing about read this...then they'd know what I really thought...haha....damn." Y'follow? God forbid anyone know what I REALLY thought, right? nono...not at all, but sometimes...well. When I first started this puppy, I didn't really feel that sort of pressure, I just wrote what I wanted to, cuz hell...who the hell was gonna read MY page?? But now its a little different. I'm still toying with the idea of having a completely anonymous place to write my thoughts...but perhaps a more immediate course of action may be to disconnect my site from the webring...its seems thats probably the biggest problem. Since its part of Yahoo, searches for any key words under the sun(especially those taken out of context) produce a link to my page.
Or is that the reason at all? Who gives a hootnanny?? HA! I've really gotta regulate my sleeping schedule.
I've been seeing "super cute workshop girl" a lot lately....uh...no, not like we've actually exchanged more than a sentence.....once....haha...but I've been hitting up a lot of workshops, and she always seems to walk through the door. I was SOOoo over her...heh...but hmm...I think I'm into her again. Its kinda nice to have something interesting to observe at workshop. Its wierd...what do I find alluring about her...hmmm....maybe cuz at this point, she's still really mysterious...and that girl can DRAW....and she looks mad cute when she's all concentrating...heh..and she's got this kind of shyness to her vibe...but she smiles a lot, with that extra spiforiffic smile....ugh...someone smack me with a wet mackrel already.=)
I should really talk to her huh? I should, shouldn't I? *yes dude, you probably should...* But what if choke...I ALWAYS do...my track record for approaching girls that I have even a slight interest in shows that my voice turns into something akin to mush...more like a whimper than any form of dialog. hehe...You think I'm jokin' here...y'think I'm exaggerating...not so. Oh blah. Who gives an F*, right? Yeah...ya only live once(this is my mantra whenever I get caught up in "what-ifs"). So now the hunt for "opportunity".
So how are you holding up? What are you up to there....*peers over monitor onto desk* I'm sorry, we don't talk enough anymore...but just hang in there....how are things with you? *listening* Nono...I do NOT think its wierd talking to a webpage...not in the least...I'm listening....*listening* Hahah...no he didn't!.....no way! Thats rediculous. Yes, definately thats the case....yeah.....uh huh.....*listening* Heheh...you know you crack me up sometimes....=)
Its now 6:33am, and there's a soft light outside...NOTHING like sunshine...its actually very cloudy...and raining.....hmm...actually, its kinda nice=) I've got my little desk lamp on and my mp3s playing. Hmm...hell, I'm sure you guys wonder sometimes what it looks like while I'm bloggin'...hold on:
4/20/2001 06:40:14 AM
Monday, April 16, 2001
I just got off the phone with my mom...man, I really gotta visit her. She just bought her second fish today to keep her company.
"Have you named them?" "Why? They wouldn't hear me." "haha...you've got to name them ma. Or else they'll just feel like fish....they won't feel special." "Okay, the red one and the green one." "What?? nono...thats almost like cheating!" "Okay...Eric and Daniel." "haha...okay, so which one is me?" "I think the red one..." "Why the red one, cuz I'm mean?" "No...not because you're mean. Because I got the other one first." "haha"
Dood, my mom cracks me up so bad sometimes...=) I really wanna visit her...
4/16/2001 11:03:25 PM
I don't read my own shit. Yes, you heard me...I just browsed over some of it today, and its so long...and boring...hahaha...and in turn, I put out crap like, "...but today was the day I decided. But it was completely painless..." Bwhaha...so you've found me out...or rather, I've found myself out, and shared it with you all. Either way, reading over whatever was just written is a GOOD thing. Remember that one folks.
I just had a good chat with Jerome...its really been too long since I've talked to this guy for more than a few minutes. He's been too busy with all his korean women, and studying....and women...and beer....and women. You should go over to his page and hound him for some stories.=) Oh, and theres uh...no need to tell him I sent ya.
Today was basically laundry day...I met up with some friends, and we had dinner at a Thai Restaurant while my clothes were on the dry cycle. I have to say at first the green curry I ordered wasn't what I expected....wasn't what I was used to...but after a few minutes, I really came to like it. I don't see myself back in the near future, but I'll know where to go to get that "taste" if ever I crave it.
"He's a great guy" "He's a good man" If asked, I think the untrained male would say the first statement is the greater compliment. Ahh....but no, it is not so. It is in fact the second that is the greater compliment...mainly because what is hidden in the first statement... *hidden?* Yes...hidden. What you DON'T see is the "but..." that comes directly after it....as in, "He's a great guy, but...he's got a third ear." See? Do you see how this works?? Whereas the first one would probably be delivered something like this: "He's a good man"...followed by some fluttering eyes, a wistful lover's sigh....then perhaps a "he's simply dreamy". Do you see? Sometimes it seems as if woman will never be understood...but we have teams of scientists studying them day in and day out....performing experiments with female apes, and whatnot....not soon....but someday, women WILL be figured out...and they'll publish a manual along with every woman...when arguments arise, when the high heels become weapons, a disgruntled male need only open the manual for the model of "woman" he has, and he will find the answer. Simple....clear...concise....and it'll never happen....*sigh*
I've finally found out her secret! I finally found out Cinny's secret....how she writes so much...the secret? It is this.....listen closely...come closer to the screen...yes, thats it....*ouch* wait wait, back up...just a tad...there...yes, there....listen....she's got a team of writers working for her! I've discovered one of their names...one they call a Jackson Lam....yes...he is one of them...soon, I'll find out her other secret methods as well...and perhaps hire them to write at my site...then I could write as much as her! *insert evil laughter here* (cool redisign, keep it up=)
Hmm...so I'm sitting here at 4 in the morning...I think I should go to bed. *y'think?* Yeah...its kinda late, and I've got a full day of class tomorrow. I've been feeling better recently...still working on it...but its getting better. Maybe someday I'll write about it. Anywayz, I'm in love with my sax...my computer's jealous...but she shouldn't be...I've got enough love to spread around.
4/16/2001 03:52:36 AM
Sunday, April 15, 2001
Its 4:30am and I just got home....and Mark is twistin' my arm to play Starcraft..............OKay okay, so there was no arm twisting...but hell, what am I thinking? Anywayz, its been a full Saturday. I woke up late...going to sleep at 3am, what the hell was I thinking that I could get up at 7:45am and make it to the Costume Carnival by 9. Soooo...I get there at 11:40.=X Do a little drawing before lunch rolls around.
At lunch, I get to talking to "Ms. Guru"...heh..I guess that'll be her name on here. She's the one in my class who's lived in Tibet for 3 years, and all that...y'kno, the Femme Indiana Jones. So after talking for a few minutes, we decide to go get some lunch. Man, I gotta say she's got one of the most interesting pasts I've ever heard....it goes(as far as I can decipher) something like this...she used to major in Chemistry, but then went into Tibetan medicine, trying to fuse western and eastern medicinal philosophies...she lived in Tibet for 3 years, while learning "the ways"...she's had audience with the Dali Lama on several occassions....yadda yadda yadda....So we were just talking about various things...I have to say I did more listening than talking...it was really cool to meet someone who, at least at one point in their lives was unhappy and couldn't figure out why. For her, she said the reason was this..."when I think about it, if I had the perfect job, a perfect relationship, and everything, would I be happy? And the answer would be "not really"...and that was what was getting me. Then I realized after a long while, that I'm a part of something bigger, and the whole world isn't just me me me. Cuz if I was gone, the world would go on without me, right? So feeling that I was part of a much grander thing....was what I needed, and it helped." And after realizing that, is when she got into the spiritual stuff. I was listening intently...its great to have a conversation like that with someone, and hopefully learn a few things from other's experience...not to mention I'm kinda where she was at. And I'm not saying that I'm exactly lookin' for the same answer she was....but y'kno, food for thought=)
After lunch, we went back to finish up the rest of the carnival. William showed up...4 hours late....like myself=) Yeah, we're both nocturnal, near-vampires...The last 2 hours, I started on a drawing that, if it turns out nice, I'll give to my brother...he's been asking me for something to hang on his wall. Last night, I figured out what I would do...a drawing on toned paper, with sanguine. The look is classical, and the colors would go well with his wood/metal decor I think.
Wrapping up the costume carnival, I know I had fun, along with everyone else. I decided to leave the photography to the other people I know. I just get doubles...the whole point being for reference photos. I want to preserve the dynamic lighting, but my camera is like a "tourist" camera, y'kno the kind. Snap and forget...none of the F-stops and shutter control. So yeah, leave that up to those who know...and leech the results.
William and I did a little shopping and played a few games of pool while chattin' it up about drawing and art. I think we're pretty similar....enough so, that we can talk about games, and ideas for projects...drawing, drawing skills and aesthetics, etc...so when I go off on artistic rants, he can hang, and vice versa.
I remembered our friend was having a girl he knew from Berkeley over, and he wanted me to go eat dinner with them...William decided to tag along, and we both went to his place. She was cool...we had a good time out eating at the Ramen house...after that, we got dessert at the crepe house on Irving. I think we talked and ate, and talked some more...for something like 3 hours. What I'm about to say is a vast generalization, but girls that go to Universities are different than the ones at my school. I don't kno exactly, but it just feels more natural for me....does that make sense? heh...its just joking around, and the stuff we talked about and all that...I just understand them more...but in all fairness, I'd say at least half the girls at my school are international students....so the culture thang is gonna come into play...anyhoot, we got home around 11pm....she drove home, and I just chilled, played games and watched movies with the guys....
...and ta-da...I'm back home, readying mentally for Starcraft=) SO its off to brush the pearly whites, and then into the world of zerg-o-lings and Protoss...
