After stopping by Safeway for some goodies on the way home from the drawing workshop, I make my way home....usually I just walk the 3 blocks to my house, but the bus pulled up right as I passed the stop...and seeing how I was tired and it was sprinkling outside, I decided to hop onboard.
I got into the bus, showed the driver my fastpass and walked to the back door of the bus...not bothering to sit down, because I knew I was gonna get out in a minute or two. At the back of the bus was a group of white guys and maybe a few girls...I could smell the alcohol on their breath from where I was...about 8 feet away...I walked in in the middle of their reinactment of William Wallace's "lightning out of my arse" speech from Braveheart...they were yellin' it, all together in chorus...and I thought, "hah...damn, these guys can't be half bad..." Then one of them asks his buddy a question...
"Do you know this Chinese chick?" "which one..." "Long" "who?" "Looong" "Huh?" "Suck Long" "...?" "As in "SHe Can suck on my Long DICK! AHhAhAHAHhA" "AHAHhAhA"
They all laugh...cuz the joke was obviously funny, wasn't it? *...* yeah...thats what I thought. Of course you've got one or two chiming in with a "aww man, don't be racist"...kinda wierd how they're usually the meek ones, and they're half hearted protests get drowned out in the laughter. I think they say something more out of what they feel is a social obligation rather than actually thinking theres anything wrong with it.
It really surprises me how many racist cocksmokers we have in this fair city of mine...I mean, we're not in Bible Belt here, we're on the west coast...in Cali cali...a social melting pot if there ever was one...SF of all places. Come on now...how is it that these guy's faces aren't beat in by now. There was an incident about a week ago with these 3 asian hating she-males on the Muni...I certainly hope this doesn't become a more frequent trend....and did I mention how much I wanna slap these fools around a bit? Y'kno, just a little................okay, a lot. You ever look at someone and think, ".....Oh my god.....one day.....they'll have kids."
4/7/2001 03:14:51 AM
Man, I've gotta clean this pig sty up before 9am...and it is now 1:26am...uff. heh...some friends are visiting from San Diego, and well...its not like I feel this place has got to be spotless for these people...hah...its just that they'll be crashing here for a day or two and are gonna be sleepin' on the ground, so there's gotta be room...*why don't you let them take the bed Dan? They are guests after all* I sleep on the ground too, remember? *ahh yeah...I forgot* See, everything fair.
I asked Nelz to bring me up 2 carne asada burritos with the works...haha...she was like, "whaa?? They'll be old by the time we get up there." But man, when you haven't had one in what...damn near 3 months! One begins to feeeeeeen....a twitch develops...yer kinda on edge...and pretty soon, ya gotta have that fix...ya gotta have a hit of the burrito. Man, I'm awaiting it's arrival...yum yum.
4/7/2001 01:31:14 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2001
Y'kno, your whole adolecent life, you're told to do well in school...to get those grades, cuz them grades is eberything(dig my grammer and spelling so far?). Then later on a bit, you learn that the reason for these good grades is to get into the best college....cuz college, college is everything. Then you're in college, and no one's really holding your hand like before...but everything is still fairly sheltered...everything is geared toward getting a job...cuz jobs, jobs is what you'll be doing for the rest of your life.
Then you get out of college...you get drunk off your ass in celebration....look around, and there's no hand there to coddle you...you're in the big bad world now...where people get chewed up and spit out in plenty of time for the next sucker. And that, can be a scary thing...a few years down the line, add a family and mortgage to that...and add another few tons stress to your back.
Someone I know very well just got laid off yesterday...just like that. Not more than 10 minutes at work and he was told to take the rest of the day off and arrange for a time to pick up his stuff. And this isn't some summer job where you give the "fuck you! I hated this job anywayz, I'm free!!!" speech with the complimentary middle finger...nono...this is a REAL job. So just 2 days ago, things were going just fine...things were stable, things were secure...biggest worry was getting a refridgerator. Today? Everything is in flux, security is out the window...you're out to sea without so much as a raft...being tossed around like a ragdoll.
For some reason I was under the impression that employers would extend the courtesy of a week or two notice like we're always told to give them...nope. Y'kno, pops told me something awhile back that I thought was kinda harsh at the time, but as of late, makes perfectly good sense. He said, "Don't feel that you have to be loyal to your company. Get your job done, and get it done well, but going the extra mile for the good of the company...your company doesn't care about you, you have to keep your own best interests in mind and never depend on them to do it for you. Companies will view you as replaceable if it comes down to it, and you should view them in the same light. Always look out for yourself."
Of course this attitude, I only apply to work...imagine saying to a friend, "Yeah, okay so I'm gonna drive you to the airport and miss out on my game, but what do I get out of this? I've got to look out for myself y'kno..." Nono...if it came down to that kind of behavior, I'd have to move to Tibet and live with selfless monks.
Its this recession...people getting laid off left and right....projected timespan: 1-1.5 years. Good: by the time I'm out of school, things should be alrite again Bad: there'll always be recessions. I guess its all in how you deal with it, prepare, and how resourceful you are. A saying goes, "Prepare for the worst; if things don't work out, you'll be covered. if things do, you'll be pleasantly surprised."
4/5/2001 12:51:33 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2001
Man, I will absolutely...subconsciously of course=X...do ANYthing to put off a big project. I've got this manuscript speech to do on thursday, and I set aside tonite just for that. I get home early instead of hitting the animation lab...put down my bag, wash the hands, and jump on the computer just to "see whats going on"....say hi to people...just "hi" mind you, or maybe a "whats up dude"...y'kno....I IM Jeremy:(disclaimer: the following convo is recalled from memory, not copy and paste as is usual)
"Wanna kill something?" "haha" "=)" "ALRITE! Damnit...you twisted my arm...how can I refuse? Lets do it"
He was of course referring to Starcraft=P The bane of any self respecting student's college carreer....this I kno. So yeah, he "twisted my arm"....by uh....asking me once....so we got to playing. Soon, more people came...Mai and her special friend..=X Then Nelz...and aiy...pretty soon it was a SC orgy up on Bnet.
Around 12, I decided it was time to get started on my paper...so I bid the others goodnite. I closed out of Starcraft....and loaded up Deus Ex....JUST, just to see where I had left off...not meaning to play really...but just as I loaded up my latest saved game, I realized I left off at an extremely tense and suspense-filled act. Telling myself, "Aww, its still early, just play till you get out of this predicament, and it gets boring..." Weeeellllll....3 hours later, and it was still fun...who'd a thunk it??? Realizing I'd burned away 3 hours of potential speech writing time, I exercised immense will power and Herculean restraint...quiting out of Deus Ex.
Then I decided, I should eat......which...heh...is what I'm doin' now...and sippin' on some naturally fermented dry pear cider(a leftover from the other night). And NOW...I end this blog, to start......my...hey, I think I'm gonna make an ice cream float...yeah, that would hit the spot. Yeah, I'll make one after I finish my dinner...THEN...then start...=P
4/3/2001 03:27:08 AM
Monday, April 02, 2001
I can kinda understand Ger's sentiments toward her blogsite right now...I'm burnt out on it. Or...mine, I should say. So in order to preserve the quality of my blog site...(which has gone to hell in a handbasket as of late), I'm not pushing myself to blog everyday...
Well..I'm buzzin'...GWHAHAHAha...ooh. Anywayz, I just came back from celebratin' Hiroshi's 21'st bday...we went out to eat and play pool...and get buzzin' and play games...blah blah balh...NO~!
Okay...
4/2/2001 02:50:40 AM
Sunday, April 01, 2001
You ever get that feelin' that somebody up there is bein' mean to ya? Like when you walk 3 blocks to get to the bus stop, and when you're 2 and a half blocks away from the stop, you see the bus pass by? Well that's been me these last few days...but today...today the Muni Gods were smilin' down on me...
We'd finished watching "The Spanish Prisoner"(which I recommend...its one of those really cool films that you'll never see unless its recommended...so go get it)...and I'd kicked back a few beers...which, btw, I'm still feelin' now...heh. We watched an old rerun of NYPD blue..when it was time I decided I should head home...having drank so much liquid, I had to whizz...so I started toward the bathroom to notice someone was takin' a shower..."Ah hell, I'll do it when I get home"...so I walk the 2 blocks to the bus stop...and I've been here at this early hour before...and the wait is usually at least 15 to 20 minutes. On the walk there, I realize..."damn...I gotta whiz pretty damn bad", and I know I'll just be doin' the "pee dance" if I've got to wait more than a few minutes for the bus...but low and behold, the minute I get to the bus station, the bus shows up....that isn't luck my friend...that...is the Muni Gods at work
I've always believed in them...making the bus come on time, or late...merely at the fancy of their whim...but I guess they figured "aww, we've messed with the kid enough, lets cut 'im a break tonite"....and as I stood over that toilet...you can believe I was sayin' thanx in my own special way=)
