Dudes.....I just....woke up.....from a Rip Van Winklesque sleep. How long you ask? 16 hours!!! Thats a new record man...its scary. I guess it was my total lack of sleep the two previous days. But...I feel good...I feel great actually.=) I just laid down around 12am last night in mid chat with my cousin, and next thing I know it was 6am....so since I slept in my (going to school clothes), I took 'em off, shut off the light, and crawled back into bed. Then I wake up around 3:30ish....crazy crazy. How very nutz.
What was so cool about last night was....I dreamt...coherantly, twice or more. I can still remember two of them. And they actually made sense...thats cool...really cool. Everyone dreams, but most of the time you just don't remember them. If you don't believe me, there is an experiment. Put a pen and pad right next to your bed and right when you wake up, when the dream is already fading from memory, go and jot it down....Actually, after my first dream(damn, I wish it wasn't a dream....*sigh*), I was gonna blog about it. Like actually rouse myself out of bed and slide over to the computer, log online, and start typing....but it didn't happen. It just kinda surprises me a bit that I even had that inclination.
Well, I've got a few things to take care of today....I'm going to call the DMV and ask about renewing my license. I've gotta take a shower, eat and head off to the workshop...come home, and do a cloth study. Oh yeah...I've tired of the unhealthy bachelor life...yesterday, I said to myself, "alrite dude...you've lived up that whole "burgers and fries for every meal" lifestyle...now y'gotta eat healthy like before." So there it is. I'm gonna eat healthier. Feel better...live longer. Dig it. I used to be the one lookin' at the labels on the back of food products, tryin' to eat a balanced diet...and now a lot of my friends are doin' that, and I'm the one who was like, "aww...whatever". heh....yeah, it was this house that did it to me. Not being able to cook...no good grocery stores nearby that sold fresh veggies...and stuff...but fuck all that...I'm takin' charge baby. Alrite, I'm off...have a good day peoples.
12/8/2000 04:27:08 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2000
My brother once said to me awhile back..."When you're in a relationship with someone who tries to manipulate you with guilt, you don't really see it. You're just too close....but after you guys break up and you think back, or anyone else tries that on you again, you just get mad." How true...how very true. Bah humbug. Chics....bah. Anywayz....
I feel like playing my sax...but at 12, its kinda late for that. Okay, I'mma go. I'll be back to blog later...I'm not whimping out=)
12/7/2000 11:55:58 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2000
*sigh* Whew....I feel much better....a weight has been lifted off me. I just got off the phone with my moms and I told her about my plans for winter break, and what I thought about housing. Like I said in an earlier blog, this whole housing thing kinda kept me from really indulging in the feeling that in a little over two weeks I'd be going home. So basically what I came out to was that I'm gonna stay the whole winter break instead of comming back early to look for housing. Yeah, originally, my goal was to find a place before next semester began, but things change. My landlord came by today and I told him I was going home for a month and I just asked if he had any idea when he'd tear this place down. He had said 9 months about 3 months ago, but when I asked him today, he said the architect was drawing up the plans and it would probably be at least another 9 months from now. Cooooool. One of my worries was that he'd want to tear it down soon, and I'd be on rampage to find a place...and I hate stressin' like that. I've been through it before, and when the chips were down, I lucked out with this place. Those two weeks were some REALLY stressful times....I can't remember another time I had that much riding on my shoulders, with me wondering if I could succeed. Something like three weeks before the start of the semester...I HAD to find a place before school started, or I just wouldn't be able to go to school this semester. I also had to prove to my dad I could handle it. He was really doubting....so much so that he told me to hold off on paying the semester tuition till I found a place. But show him I did...I handled everything...my plane trip up, driving arrangements...staying with a friend for 3 weeks(we had some fun...ha), and just workin' my ass off everyday on the phone, with my nose in the paper or pointed at the computer screen...just tryin' to find freakin' shelter in the damn Bay Area. Yeah, I was mad stressin'...and I hate it...hah...I fuckin' hated that feeling. I felt like I couldn't enjoy anything until I accomplished my goal. I didn't think about home...or anything...totally focused on this one goal. Sounds like I was a freakin' triathalon or something, but damn, I felt like it took that kinda determination.
My mom likes the idea of me finding a place with my housemates...and I think that could work out nicely. We'll see. And so we talked it out...and things became clearer in terms of my plans. I went ahead and purchased my ticket home online....I'm headed out of here on Christmas Eve...about noonish...anyone wanna pick my hide up?=P Anywayz, I'm feelin' much, much better...I'm knockin' things off my agenda left and right.....and wholy ish! I'm goin' home in two weeks! hahah....
Well, I tried to do those storyboards....but it just wasn't happening without a desk...so they'll have to wait till tomorro. As for me right now...I think I'll revel a bit....ahhhhhh......
12/6/2000 11:47:58 PM
Well, I pulled that paper off...pretty simple actually, and I think it came out creatively juicy. I did the whole MLA styled bibliography and title page...reminds me of the days when I actually had to do papers semi-regularly. I enjoy writing creatively, be it for speech, debate, or whatever. I miss some of the purely academic stuff I used to have to do in college before I came to the Academy. Like I hear about all my friends at UCSD and other colleges "cramming and studying all night for finals" and stuff....I wanna experience that again. Haha...I know you're looking at me like I'm crazy, but yeah...its something I sorta miss=) Make no mistake that I'm workin' just as hard here at the Academy, but the finals and things here are mostly projects and things of those nature.
I finished the paper around 5:30am, and got about an hour and a half of sleep and was out the door by 7:30. Made it to school early enough to print out the pages at the mac lab and still had time to relax before class. Since I had no way of binding my pages together....no stapler, no folder....I had to McGyver(yes, it is a verb...what, u didn't kno?) a staple by twisting, poking, and bending a paper clip. Ha...after 5 minutes of wrestling with it, I held it up and marveled at my handy work. McGyver always carried around a roll of ductape wherever he went...maybe I should start carrying a few paperclips wherever I go.
In Art History class, I sat in the very front...second row...right in front of the Instructor. I have to say that just like before, it was a much more engaging experience. I totally dig the lecture and absorbing all this info.....which umm...didn't stop me from dozing off during parts of the last hour of class. It must've been the 1 1/2 hours of sleep I got.
Afterwards, I headed on over to the figure drawing workshop and broke out my sketchbook and tunes. I was feelin' it today, so the gestures went quick and smooth...then I went up to the 6th floor...the library to do some storyboards for Perspective class tomorrow...I knocked out the thumbnails in about an hour. After that, I had plenty of time..it was probably only around 3. So with some down time on my hands, I went over to Virgin Megastore on Market and went to the 3rd floor where the cafe and book section is. Picked out another Sin City graphic novel...and got in line to buy a double cafe moka(yeah, thats how they spell it there).
Y'kno what? I think I'm buying into Ger's whole turtleneck theory. I was in line for that double cafe moka when I noticed an aquaintance out of the corner of my eye with her friend. They were in conversation so I didn't head over to say hi or anything and just kept waiting. Then I faintly heard her say, "hey, I kno that guy" "you do?" "yeah..." "hey, he's cute." Ha....that was nice. I'm attributing it to the turtleneck I was wearing today.
Well, I got my cafe moka and took a seat. The store cafe sits on the corner of the third floor, giving a beautiful panoramic view of Market and adjoining streets...its really nice. I started in on Sin City: The Big Fat Kill....haha....did I mention I simply LOVE these things? I feel like that lil' kid from the Never Ending Story reading these things. Chris, dood...you were so right when you said, "Frank Miller knows how to write a man's man." All his heros have that sorta machismo about them....its that film noir, dramatic lighting, big city, booze, broads, sleeze, and archetypal characters thang. As usual, it was a quick read...I think this one was pretty good, but in comparison, weaker than the previous two I read. Still, I enjoyed it mucho all the same.
Well, I've still got to make those storyboard thumbnails into full sized drawings so I'll go do that soon...I think I'll break out the sax for half an hour first.....=)
12/6/2000 06:57:20 PM
Have you ever had the hiccups for 40 freakin' minutes straight?? Damn damn damn...this sucks...well, at least I'm not in class or anything. I'm terrible at keeping my hiccups "inside" too...I always hiccup outloud and it sucks. I was just wondering if any musical performers had to postpone a show for like 40 minutes because they got the hiccups. "Ladies and Gentlemen, Prince cannot come out right now. He has the hiccups. *crowd goes "awwww"* Don't worry, he will be fine and out performing again after standing on his head drinking a few cups of water. Thank you."
Something I've noticed about San Francisco at night. We have LOTSA tremors. Yeah...like mini earthquakes. Its pretty nuts dude. Like I'll be sitting here and my computer tower will rock slightly, and I'll look around and watch other stuff rocking back and forth. And it happens quite often. I think twice this week. DUDE, CALIFORNIA IS GONNA SINK INTO THE OCEAN!! I SAW IT ON THE DISCOVERY CHANNEL MAN!! GAME OVER MAN, GAME OVER!! Ah well, if that happens, I'll hop on my suitcase and paddle to Arizona.
Well, right now I'm BSing that art history paper. Hmm...I guess BSing is a strong word....lets just say I'm just doing whats expected and not going above and beyond. I do think I'll get the A or B though, because I can BS...I mean, cuz I work well under these crunch time circumstances. And an A in the class? Without a doubt=) I've been kickin' this class's ass left and right this whole semester.
Dig this. The whole time I've been staying at this place, I haven't paid utilities. My landlord said we'd have to split the utilities when I first moved in, but I've never recieved a bill of any kind other than my phone bill. I've asked Kenny(my landlord) on occassion about any utility bills and he just said he hasn't gotten any. Guess what.....SDG&E came a'knockin' today. The bill was something like 180 bucks. So thats 60 bones per person...not too bad, but two things about this. We need to get it squared away right quick cuz I don't wanna be in the shower bustin' my best Mariah Carey and latherin' up and have the water shut off. First, everyone in the house would hear me squeeling out "...RUN TO YOU, WITH OPEN ARMS.....uhh..." And second, its always been a nightmare that I'd be all fully lathered ready for rinsing and the water would shut off...or like we'd have an earthquake and I'd have to run out into the street buck nekkid, with soap bubbles all over my body no less. Another thing about this "late, why the hell didn't we recieve something the past 3 months" bill is that some of the current tenants have only been here for a month. And so they have to pick up the slack for the other people who were living here previously. Yeah, I guess that doesn't have anything to do with me since I've been here since the beginning, but it just seems unfair.
Well, the semester is definately on the wind down. Man, only 2 more weeks after this one. I really should be bouncing off the walls...I really should....there's only one thing. The housing situation. My goal was to have a new place to live by the start of next semester. That means if I don't find something within the next 2 and a half weeks, I'll have to come back several weeks early from winter break to look. And that will really suck...I totally want to maximize my time back home. So far, I have two leads on this. The rooms for rent that my friend and I are going to go look at any day now. The catch is that they're running for 850 a pop. The anti catch is that my friend's landlord is the sister of the landlord of that other joint, and she said to just go check out the place and talk to her and maybe a compromise can be made. The second lead is moving in with my current housemates. It wouldn't be in Sunset or Richmond(which is where I really wanted to live), but probably somewhere else. The plus factor is that they'd pretty much do all the work in looking for the place and I wouldn't mind at all living with them. The negative is that I just don't want to go home with my mind set on moving in with them with nothing concrete to show for it but "yeah, lets move in together". Soooo yeah, thats the thing keepin' me from bouncing off the walls. As for the other things on my agenda, they are as follows (with things being completed taken off already):
register for classes buy plane ticket home do art history paper due next week renew license
Straight copy/pasted from my .txt file agenda. CRAP, I STILL have the hiccups...this is rediculous...is there such thing as a kind of Hiccupitus? Man, this is crazy.
Alrite, I should get on this paper again...maybe I can finish by 4am. We had to do notations and a bibliography in MLA format....I haven't done that in so long that I had to go look up how to do it again...hah...sad. I used to be pretty dern gude at righting two. More later....I bid you peace....and happy cooking.
12/6/2000 03:27:00 AM
Monday, December 04, 2000
"American woman...get away from me-hee....American woman, mama let me be-hee. Don't come hangin' round my door! I don't wanna see your face no more. I don't need your war machines, I don't need your ghetto scenes..Colored lights can hypnotize, sparkle someone else's eyes...now woman...lalala" *groove groove* What up all...I needed my dinner music...ha. So if you guys ever wondered what my tupaware looked like (for some STRANGE reason=), there it is for all to see...and actually, thats what I'm munchin' right now...dude, I'm soo hungry, I haven't eaten all day....my housemate said to snag some soup they made for dinner, so I got a small bowl of that too....*munch munch* Umm...don't mind me... Man, that picture unfortunately doesn't show the true girth of my tupaware...its wide...its deep...and its filled (now halfway) with fried rice...I tried something new and put some tuna in it....err....won't be trying that again in awhile.
Alrite alrite...I'm slowin' down a bit...whew...pretty good stuff....well, today, I woke up at the 2pm mark...(how messed up am I..heh...) and went to do the laundry. Got home and did one of those master drawing copies for Anatomy class...so that was 1 yesterday night, and one today...they're due tomorro....2 down, 4 more to go. These things are a lot easier than I'd first thought...totally better than those damn skeleton drawings...gah. But again...I'm not really putting much effort into these...just wanna get 'em done. I really don't see too much of a point to be copying master drawings for an anatomy class when we have models at our disposal in class. I mean, copying a master drawing is making a second generation copy of a model....through the master's eyes, and now through my eyes from his drawing. And some of these drawings aren't even done from life...ah well.
So nadda much has happened today...just chillin' and doin' my homework leisurely. I've still got that Art History paper to do...probably tomorro night...then I'll go early to school on weds, print it out in the computer lab around 8:45ish..and make it to class by 9am...see? Like clockwork baby....
From now (8pm), taking roughly 50 minutes per drawing and a 10 minute break inbetween or general lagging during, I should be done by 12....good good...alrite, I'm goin' back to work. "...I gotta go....american woman....yea......." *groove groove*
12/4/2000 07:50:33 PM
Sunday, December 03, 2000
The sun went down awhile ago and I just never bothered to turn on the light...so I'm sitting here in the dark...its pretty nice. I think I scarcely left my room twice today, but it was nice. Have you ever just spent your day doing all the lazy things you wanted? All the cares, out the window....there were things to do today but I just didn't feel like it...yeah, I have days like this...its not something I predict, its not something I plan, it just happens, and I obey.=) I could fight it...but why...Actually, today was pretty much a continuation of yesterday night...I had that lazy feelin' growin'...and today I woke up at 2. I was supposed to go to the museum for an art history paper...nah...don't feel like it. It closes at 5 and to me, the trip just wasn't worth it...supposed to do laundry....nah, didn't feel like it...laundry can be done any other day...so we'll leave it till then.=)
I just surfed the web for awhile...I found that I could find all the resources I needed for that art history paper online...I was meant to go to the museum and look at the work in real life, but what they don't kno won't hurt them...besides, I kno I'll make my way down there on my own time soon. So I continued my anti social day=) No one online to really chat with...well, there was, but I just didn't feel like it. It must sound like that was the theme for the day huh?=) Not true...I did some drawings for a present I'm working on for someone...My mp3s have been playing all day...more mellow, lazy day tunes I recycled all day and still haven't got tired of. This heater is really great...never had a cold moment today...except when I stepped out of my room....twice...=)
Its great to have time to reflect on things...sometimes life can get so hectic, there's no time to sort out things, and learn from what you've been through...recently, and not so recently. But I think reflection is neccessary for growth. I was doing a lot of that...its a good feeling to know you've come a long way. I kinda feel sorry for people who are always in a rush....always things to do...there's no time to themselves. "Work hard, play hard" I guess is the ethic...as long as ya know how to relax, u're good to go=)
I also finally got up the courage to break out the ol' saxaphone. Back in the day, I'd always wanted to be able to play one...I told everyone, "I'm going get myself one and play it...I'm gonna get good"...but just last summer, I finally took action, rented a sax and was hell bent on learning it...practiced everyday. I borrowed books, and just played and tried to teach myself....lovin' every minute. So when it came time to move up here again, I borrowed my cousins saxaphone. But things were pretty stressful and busy in the beginning of the semester...so many things to take care of...the new living situation...and although the stress level decreased over time, I was still busy as ever..coming home so late at night most days, and just too tired. This kept going on and on...and soon, I never touched the thing. Everytime I thought about breaking it out to play, or whenever I was listening to jazz tunes, I'd feel guilty...like I broke a promise to myself...that I'd play it and keep getting better. So I fell into a rut, where just looking at it brought back those guilty feelings...so time passed...and I hadn't touched it in a few months. But finally, today, I brought out the case, opened it...and just practiced the scales a bit...and attempted a few old tunes I remembered...and I can say...I'm in love again=) I can't promise that I'm going to play everyday...but I'll certainly try to get in practice whenever I can...and I've finally gotten out of that rut I was in....
Along with all the chillin', reflection, web surfin' and other stuff...I was thinking about someone. heh...guess I should just leave that at that...(don't look too much into this, kay?=)
Soooo...I feel like I'm doin' all the talking here...how was your day? What did you do......really? tell me more..................no but really, thats cool................alrite alrite.......yeah....hey, that sounds good=) I'm glad ya had a good day too. Well...I guess I should be off...here's how I'm predicting the rest of my day to go...shower...eat...more chilling and gettin' random stuff done here and there...I may just be back later....Oh, and its pretty trippy to know this page has been visited 1000 times...I was gonna say, "if you are the 1000th visitor, e-mail me, cuz I wanna hear from YOOh", but I'm too late it seems=)
