Well, I finished the portrait awhile ago...actually, I snapped a picture of it, and now it represents me on my "me" page...man, I just realized I haven't updated any of those other pages...can't do it tonite though. I should just take down that damn MOZ page...a good idea, but it just didn't work out...like solar powered flashlights....ah well. I'm going to bed now...hopefully tomorrow will be better than today. Take care all.
11/18/2000 02:47:36 AM
Friday, November 17, 2000
today's just been a freakin' struggle...ugh. Yeah, it hasn't been that great of a day, and its not even over yet. My self portrait for tomorro just is not turning out...I hope to save it, but I'll be up pretty late tonite. I just came home from that workshop and that was pretty tough to get through...*sigh* I think the best thing is to take a lil' rest on my bed...maybe cook something to eat...and get into the portrait a little later...throw on some mellow tunes, and think.
Btw, no blog yesterday...completely unintentional...but around 12, I laid down for what was to be a little 45 minute nap...next thing u kno, I wake up and its 5:40am....hmm....so I just turned out the light, and crawled back into bed...next thing I kno its 1:30pm. Well, no one can say this day turned out like it did for lack of sleep. Aw well...
11/17/2000 09:59:08 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2000
HOLY ISH, I'm 21! Nyeheh....
excerpt from something posted previously elsewhere:
Well, I'm at school takin' a break 11/15/00 9:27 pm
The big 2 1 strikes me tomorro....so I thought I'd get up on the soap box and preech a bit. 21 years on this earth....tell ya truth, it doesn't feel too different than 20 years on this earth...except for ALL THE FREAKIN' PRIVILEDGES....yes...I plan on becoming a raging alcoholic. Just for a bit....then maybe I'll be a club whore....and....and a bar fly. Hmm...Jerome tells me, "You know how you imagined it? its 10 times better..." I'm pretty excited actually...even though I'm not making a big fuss...I wonder how wierd its gonna be walking into a liquor store and well....buying any damn thing I want..."Gimmie some Jack Danio's...ooh, and a 6pack of corona....and a box of condoms" hell yea...heh... I can't remember the last time I thought back to what a birthday really means...it means the day in which I was brought onto this earth, for good or bad...to experience all its wonders, up and down...to find my way, with the help of those I love...the day the doctor slapped my ass and made my belly button...I was probably shivering like an epileptic hyeena...parents probably had this big smile on their face...and bro was out in the waiting room hitting on nurses....yeah, thats what a bday means.... Well, I guess I'll leave it at that. take care guys...you shall never have another unfulfilled want for brew.
Dan
11/16/2000 12:34:03 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2000
Did the usual go to class thing....my "boring" anatomy class...I was expecting to fight off sleep the entire time, but actually, today was interesting...quite interesting...so much so that its sparked a debate within myself about my drawing. (warning, upcomming art mumbo jumbo. Look for the @ sign when its safe to start reading again) Well, I've always been taught of the importance of fluidity...gesture, in my drawings...and I've incoporated them thusly. My style right now is kinda a cross breed between measuring and using curves and fluid lines...a result of current Intermediate Figure Drawing instructor(who was classically trained...its all about the fluidity and gesture with him) and my Beginning Figure Drawing instructor(who was more of a straight lines, measuring kinda guy). Today in anatomy class, my teacher breaks it on us just before break..."In here, from now on...I don't want to see a single curved line...just straight lines from here on out. I found that measuring, and using straight lines was the single most influential and beneficial piece of information in my training as a figurative artist...and I feel its my responsibility to impart this on you" He began to show us his work, and explain WHY he thought this way...he said "30 second and 1 minute gestures? They're useless...I've always thought they were useless. I think more than a few instructors here feel the same way.." WHoa, wha?? Man, in all my years, I've never heard ANYone say that...a student broke in "but they help you see the action line, and help train your eye." "No they don't" Flat out, he just said that....then went on passionately "They actually worsen your eye...your perception, because you're just seeing generalities. You're not seeing the subtle things. The drawings of people who draw like this look more like cartoons...." *hmm...peaking interest...lemme listen more* "Drawing with straight lines forces you to observe...to measure...its a really geometric way to approach it. What I see so often with people drawing with curves is they'll just make a line like this *draws a line shaped like a coma on the board* when really theres so many plane changes...at least 8 or 9 small ones in there" He just went on about it....then afterwards, we took our break and we had a 20 minute drawing session....and we all were instructed to draw with straight lines. Afterwards, he took a few examples of student's work, before and after...and...ALL of them showed pretty drastic improvement. Whoa....like, whoa dude. heh...even in my own work...I saw some improvement. Now....at first, his words were just a shock...what? curves a no-no? But thats not what I've been taught. Yet after awhile, I saw the wisdom in his words...I mean, if I were to just shrug it off like a lot of people in class, I would be acting closed minded about the whole thing...so I felt a responsibility to myself to really consider what he was saying. When I draw with straight lines, things look more accurate to some extent....but then, I don't like the idea of an overly "geometric" approach...I believe in finding the action line...instead of basically mapping out the whole body like a road map. I think I can see the way that I'm going with this...I think I may incorporate more straight lines initially in the drawing to get proportions and angles right...then go on with some curvy curve. Cuz when was the last time you saw a girl with a square boob...not I...heh. Okay...I'm exaggerating, but there really ARE no straight lines on the human form...EVERYTHING is a curve...so although drawing with straight lines may get things lookin' proportionally right and everything...I just feel that part of the essence of the model is lost...like part of the spirit of the drawing is lost in trying to capture everything with straight, almost mathematical lines...okay okay, heh...just needed to type that out to kinda sort things out for myself...
*ding ding* @
Getting out of class...had dinner at Wendy's with Dennis and headed home. When I got to the muni station, it turns out there was a big delay...I had to wait nearly 40 minutes for my train to come. I had my new earphones bumpin' so I was alrite with the wait....and y'kno what I noticed? Because people were just sitting around due to the delays....I saw a whole bunch of guys tryin' to get their mack on...heh. I was sittin' across from this cute security guard lady...and up walks a regular dude...he just sat down next to her...and was real smooth about it..I mean, I knew his moves and stuff...but he was smooth about it..heh...he just sat next to her, and gave her a smile..."Hi." She smiled....then he just leaned over and y'kno...said a few words...I couldn't quite make it out, but probably something like, "can ya believe this delay?" Heh...then she said something...and they started talking back and forth...gaining a little momentum. Then I glanced to the back of the train, there was this girl I saw who was just alone at the last stop talking to this other guy....she still had her earphones in her ears....but she was smiling, and the whole body language thing tells me that she was diggin' "Mr. dude"...heh. Then at a later stop, on walks this asian dude...this short asian dude, real conservatively dressed, smart looking guy...smiled alot, kinda shyly....and he was talking to this hot looking white chic....y'kno, dressed in that classy "long leather jacket with grey pants and stuff" look...and judging by her body language, she was really diggin' short asian dude...I was like, "solid....right on my bruva..." hehe...after a few stops, it was funny...I just saw like all the guys tryin' to get the links with the digits...nyeheh...guys eh? Hehe...gah. So the security girl got the dude's number....in the back, I dunno, but I think they got off at the same stop....and asian dude, he gave her his business card and they got off at the same stop.
Arniez99: want 2 hear something funny that happened 2 me today? me: shoot Arniez99: hehe... well, i was w/ a friend 2day Arniez99: and i kinda like her and kinda don't Arniez99: so we went to her friend's bedroom and it was just the 2 of us Arniez99: n everytime i'm wit her, i'm just like, hella horny, right? Arniez99: so i'm kinda grinding against her booty Arniez99: and boom, it just happens Arniez99: and she turns around and looks Arniez99: and there it is Arniez99: uh Arniez99: my bannana in my pocket me: huh? Arniez99: and she's just oggling at it Arniez99: n then well Arniez99: she freaks out and then just tells everyone about my Arniez99: uh Arniez99: problem Arniez99: er at least, some of my closest friends here me: problem? u got a bent dick or something? Arniez99: no me: hehe Arniez99: that it's just bulging me: I'mma call u hook-dick from now on Arniez99: u know what ahm sayin
Damn, that guy Arnel...he's like the biggest drama queen I kno...with his mind perpetually in the gutter. A friend from way back in the day...haha, we love ya Arnel....but you kno you use WAY too much damn toilet paper.
Alrite then...thats it for tonite. Hey, what do ya kno, its only 1. Take it easy peoples.
11/15/2000 01:08:36 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2000
My lazy day has come and gone...it was fun thou...fun doing nothing=) I love it. I did my laundry later than usual so it was crowded...but I was in and out in a little over an hour. I had to wash my thermals, so I was Fah-reezing man....mine is a tropical people, I'm not *made* for climates such as this..............alrite, alrite, thats all b.s. But I was still really cold. When I got home and slipped on those fresh-out-of-the-dryer thermals....boy I tell yah...its a DAME good feeling..heh. First of all, they're really tight, because they shrink a bit in the dryer....its like that feeling when you're a kid, and u pull your socks all the way up to your knees....second...they're WARM....oooh!
I whipped up the basic batch of fried rice...I must say, I'm getting pretty good at cooking rice the caveman way...y'kno, minus the rice cooker. Today it wasn't even burnt in the least. Its a pity I haven't really flexed my culinary skills these past few months, but hopefully when I move into a better place, that'll change.
I broke out the New Edition album....dusted it off, and popped it into the CD player. Man, it brought back memories of the whole "singing group" thing my friends and I went through..."Practice today after school dude..." Haha...*sigh* If there's any of you guys out there reading this that happened to be IN the group...dig out your old NE CD and give it a turn....oh, 'cept you Jerome, cuz uhh...I think the one I'm listening to is yours..=X How brash we were back then....it makes me chuckle just thinking about it...how we'd perform for friends...how we sucked good and hard...hehe....yet the the girls always "oooh'd" and "ahhh'd"....haha...how sweet of 'em, eh?=) Nothing could stop us....we even had the audacity to record tapes, and hand 'em out to friends...and God knows we've been trying ever since to get them back! At parties, while everyone was dancing and stuff, we'd be all up in the corner singing....ahh...just a quick hop and a skip down memory lane.=)
Yay, I found a vintage clothing store buddy=) Ger has volunteered....right on right on...when I get back, we're hittin' up all of 'em....then I'll walk around lookin' like something out of the Shaft movie...heh...
Police guy#1: "Wait a minute, where're you going?" Shaft: "I'm goin' to get LAID, where you goin'?? HAhAHAHA"
(note: To those who've never seen the movie....THATS AN ACTUAL FREAKIN' QUOTE! Isn't a line like that enough to see any movie??) I think the time that I usually blog (latenite vampire hours) effects the general tone of them...maybe I'll try blogging in the morning...or noon...hmm...I guess I'm always blogging at this time because its when I HAVE time....and its (as I've oft stated) my creative G-spot time. Alrite....I'm gonna savor the rest of my Veg day, then hit the sack....take care all.
11/14/2000 02:43:57 AM
Monday, November 13, 2000
Well, basically, waking up this morning I had a loose plan of what I wanted to do. Buy new earphones from Circuit City on Van Ness...and while I was there, I'd eat at Happy Donut(my fave food joint from back in the dorm days...man, seems so long ago), and peep out the vintage clothes store
After picking up the new earphones(which happen to be the exact same kind that I had previously), I headed over to the Buffalo Exchange...a used clothing store...Its been quite awhile since I've been inside one of these....and after a few minutes, I felt right at home...man, u wouldn't believe some the great stuff they have in here...I'm tellin' u, this is where its at. I need a vintage clothing buddy to go shopping with...=) I saw this wool jacket there that I paid like 100 bones for way back in the day...for 23 bux. Dayam...thats the kinda deal I'm talking about...although some stuff was still pricy, I kno I'll be back. One complaint about the place though, is that its sorta ambiguous as to which is the girl section, and the guy section...example. I was looking at the jackets...and for the most part, they all looked like dude jackets...and I came upon this one...that was just awsome...OLD looking...heh...and I'm like, "this is it..I'm gonna get it dude"...then I look at the label. "size...lala....chest measurement....lala" WTF...chest measurement? And this was no business jacket or any thing of the sort...just a regular...jacket....now, call me naive, but...uhh...I'm guessin' it was a chick jacket...so I quickly put it down, and played it off...."pssh..for my girlfriend! quit lookin' at me like that..." heh...well, I didn't say that...but its how I felt.=P
I sauntered over to Happy Donut only to find it was closed...damn, it closes early on Sundays I remembered....too bad, because I really missed that place. So instead...I wandered on Polk street lookin' for a niche joint I could grab some grub at...and came upon this diner. I looked at the prices on the menu in the window and things looked good...so I walked in..."take a seat anywhere"...so I took a counter seat....peeled off my jacket, and put down my bag(me and this bag are attached at the hip nowadays). I pick up the menu and take my good time looking over everything...I finally settle on a 1/2lbs burger...order..and get comfy. I take a look around...on the wall theres a sign, "People who act like they know it all are especially annoying to those of us that do" heh...I like...cute waitress walks by and flashes me a smile...I do the same. Old Phil Collins tune was playing, and I got my food....overall, the food was pretty good...but the vibe was great. Everyone was friendly, and the customers that came in, I got the feeling that they were old time customers....the waitress and the customers would chat it up like they were old buddies...how cool is that. Me? Well, I wasn't in a talkative mood...but it was nice to be around that....I was enjoying it so much that I ordered a root beer float...just to stick around a bit more...really cool place, I'll take note of. Afterwards...slipped on the beanie and jacket, slid the bag strap over my head and onto my shoulder, payed(with a fat tip) and was off.
When I got home, I heard laughter from the kitchen...my housemates were having guests over...totally cool...but I didn't feel like socializing too much...a little tired, and wanted to chill for a bit...so I slipped in my room and hopped online. There was Jerome's name on my buddy list...
Me: hey BIATCH! Jerome: whattup home slice?!!?!? Jerome: damn boy! Me: haha... Me: scared ya didn't i Jerome: it's been a long time! Me: right man..it has....
We chatted...and tried to "talk" over online, but the lag was horrible...I finally said, "dude, forget this...I'mma call u up"....and we ended up talkin' for like 5 hours...haha...crazy. Man, this guy is just one of those friends that u kno u'll have for life.=) And its just great to be able to say that about people. We caught up, and it in no time we were talking like always...He's also my philosophizing bruva...I remember back in the day, Jermz, Jerome and myself used to go out to the cafes, and the two of us would start philosophizing...and Jermz would fall asleep while we just kept talking...hehe...ahhh..".lalal...Memories...lalal" sing with me now...=)
11/13/2000 02:45:10 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2000
Hey peoples....how are u today....*listening intently* No...thats wonderful. I love it when u have a good day....me? Aww...thats nice of u to ask...well, it wasn't altogether too bad either. I heeded my own advice last night, and went to bed relatively early...yes...the key word is "relatively"....cuz everything is relative...no? So 5 hours of sleep...and I was ALMOST late to class...well, technically, I was 2 minutes late, but see..I'm not a "technicalities" kinda guy, sooo...I was right on time=) I went through that whole mindset this morning of "Oh, 7:30? Hmm...I got a whole half an hour before I gotta head on out the door...I'll just *yawn* forgo the refreshing morning shower....*snore snore* Ooooh....OOH shit...8:05!" I tell ya, its this bed man...its too damn comfortable for its own good....and MY own good for that matter.
Class was cool as usual. Enjoyable....I had a stomach ache....must've been that sandwich from the vending machine during break....I should KNO better....20 years (soon to be 21) upon this earth, and I've learned many things....one of which is, "seemingly fresh food in a vending machine...is a LIE...it CAN'T be fresh, because its in a freakin' VENDING machine." Yet, hunger....seems to overwhelm my good sense. And the sad thing is....I kno I'll sin again...heh. I mean, when u're heading into a 7 hour class, with lunch 4 hours away...SOMEthing has got to fill that void that is your stomach, am I right? And running the risk of getting a stomach ache is better than gnawing off some tree bark from a nearby eucalyptus....Survivor Style. So I'll continue my harrowing game of Russian-Vending-Machine-Roulette.
Oh my goodness....Ger played the nekkid game. heh...gosh Ger, u're a wild child! Thats too cool....I wanna do that too...except...except it'll be Dan's take on the nekkid game....Dan's Nekkid Twister I'll call it....or something like that....instead of 5 other friends in a pitch black room.....it'll be...it'll be 5 cute girls in a well lit room! Yes....nyeheh...how can hormones subside with age...I just can't see it happening....=) Okay okay, I'm a bit nutty today...I can see how old folks don't wanna do the horizontal hokey pokey anymore...and I'm not gonna get into that, because when I typed that, a VERY unsavory image pushed itself into my head.....*shiver*
Have u ever known a couple that....that should just break up? I kno 2. And usually the case is that...one person isn't completely to blame, or one side isn't right, and the other wrong neccessarily. Whats more apparent...and more important, is that I see that they're not happy. And isn't that the overall purpose...to enrich each other's lives POSITIVELY? Both situations are different....but I can't help feeling that things would be much better off after the inevitable...and why am I typing this? Well...it was on my mind.
My twin Will is back...after a long hiatus...vacation/training/go read about it yourself. Good to have u back, I was starting to feel like an INDIVIDUAL without ya around on the web...=)
I'm feeling much better than early this week...nose is clearing up a bit...like someone turned the faucet down to half...and overall fatigue level is much lower. I'm not gonna push my luck thou, so its off to bed after this blog.
Like I was telling someone tonite, life is good...has been good for awhile...and as for relationships...its just something like icing on the cake...not a neccessity, but it would make things especially sweet....and if not, hell...cake is still damn good...=) And for those wierdos who shave off all the icing from their slice of cake....well...I don't kno what to say to u people except that...u have no place in this analogy=)
On that same note...something just occured to me. For me to say that my life is good....is to say that there is a "medium" if u will....and a "bad"...and judging by the laws of universal balance, would me saying that life is good, mean that at some point it would return to medium? Or have I established a NEW medium...and should now refer to the current state of my life as medium...or...normal, from now on(a very comforting thought). Is it a CONSCIOUS choice to call this normal? Or up to the fates...seeing as how there is no real "normal" until we DEFINE normal...who is to say that I haven't been living sub-normal, when I defined it as being normal? No one, thats who....except myself. For it is myself who defines these things for me...and thusly, I have answered my own question....man, my life is normal....and its its pretty damn good.=)
Off to bed...gee...lookie that....3am....I think I can safely say, *announcer voice* "More tomorrow, same bat time, same bat channel!"
